Working from Home
It is very difficult to work from home. Sometimes I really wished that I hadn’t taken this transaction. It requires a lot of paperwork as well as constant communication on the phone. Everytime when the phone rings, I have a fear that my child will suddenly breakdown while I am on the conversation with the other agent. It happens numerous time and again this morning.
Being just with me and him in the house during the day time, I use the DVD to babysit him. But he doesn’t always sit in front of the TV as most of the time he walks around and only stop on instant when he likes the specific segment of the film. I tried having his favorite DVD on while I was picking up the phone. But he would be running towards me all the time and trying to scream or shout. I really feel embarass to have the other person hears the background noise with the DVD as well as a screaming toddler.
This was what happened this morning that made me rose voice and smacked Brandon on his butt. I was sitting with him for potty time almost 10-15mins, but he didn’t want to go, and I know he had it in as his diaper was still dry from 1.5 hour ago after his morning milk intake. My cellphone rang, and I saw the number and I know it someone new who might want to see the property. I told Brandon that I was going to take the call and he was to remain quiet until I said ‘bye’ to the other person on the phone.
I went outside to answer the phone and that boy came running to me without his diaper. And he kept screaming and trying to pull me from my phone. I was mad and I walked inside my study and locked him out. He was banging on the door and crying at the same time, and I didn’t care about it. After I finished the phone call, I came out and saw a few patches of wetness on the carpet. Of course I smacked him. I already sat with him for 15 minutes and he didn’t want to go and now he wet my carpet. He knows he was not supposed to do that and he did it.
While I was trying to clean up his mess, he kept wanting me to carry him in his wet clothes. I used a huge towel for cleaning up and I just couldn’t do it with him all over me. I took him to his room and locked him in this time. He cried for a little while but then stopped. I was in peace but in the back of my mind, I was feeling bad for smacking his butt or rising my voice. The thing I don’t understand is why everytime when I was on the phone, he has to do that screaming thing. After I was done with the cleaning, I went inside his room and he came running to me and kept saying ‘Soree, soree mami.‘
I sat him infront of me and asked him why he did what he did and he just kept quiet. I reminded him again not to wet the carpet and hopefully he will remember.
Later on this morning, I had to go into my office to pick up a fax and I had to bring him along. It shouldn’t be bad as I was only there to pick up a fax. The moment I walked inside my office, my boy already getting nervous. Before even I reached my mailbox, he started crying. I felt so bad that I quickly checked my box and took the fax and walked out the office quickly. People’s eyes were on me. My gosh … reminds me to bring him to office my often so that he can get use to it. One thing is, most offices here look like the doctor’s office and he thinks we were going to see the doctor. *sigh*
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